PISCES FULL MOON: VICTIM, MARTYR, OR SERVICE TO SELF?
Do you ever feel like saying “oh, the hell with it–I’m tired of playing the victim!”?
What about “fuggedaboudit–this martyr stuff is for the birds!”
If so, you’re on the right track of higher vibration as this Pisces Full Moon casts is glow on the Virgo Sun August 29.
Energy is high right now around the sacrifice/service conundrum at this time, and full moons are always a time for release.
Perhaps what’s in order is a reevaluation, particularly vis-a-vis our relationships (Mercury will be retrograde in Libra soon, after all) of the “who, what, where, when, & why’s” of victimhood and martyrdom tendencies.
Remember please, that these are two different sides of the same coin, though it’s easy to see how many might confuse the two.
When we allow ourselves to play the victim–an energy inherent in the archetype of Pisces–we refuse to take responsibility. However, in doing so, we can make a habit out of blaming others.
On the other hand, when we fall into the trap of becoming an ever-sacrificing martyr, always we’re tasked with asking ourselves a hard question first: “What’s in it for me?”
Shocking as that may sound, please understand that very few of us provide services to others for which we actually do not expect to be repaid. However, we may not be conscious of these desired “payments,” be they in the form of love, loyalty, money, or anything else…
Rather, we may harbor the illusion that the borrower of our love, loyalty, money, or whatever, has every intention of paying us back–some day…
Devotion, adoration, sacrifice are all words (and concepts) that roll off the tongue easily for those who carry a heavy Piscean/Neptunian signature. Often they come out of one who may give and give and give, only to be extremely surprised to learn in the end that all that giving does not buy them what they really want–be it love, or something more tangible.
Howard Sasportas, in his book “The Gods Of Change” comes closest to putting it in language that’s easiest to understand:
“Many supposed ‘martyrs’ carry a great deal of hidden resentment around with them,” Sasportas writes. “If we are honest with ourselves now, we may come to see that serving others is partially a way of winning love and compensating for our own narcissistic wounds, or we might have to admit the sense of power which saving others gives us.”
Acknowledging how we are personally benefitting from our supposedly ‘selfless’ behavior doesn’t necessarily negate the value of what we are doing. In the end, recognizing what we are gaining from these kinds of relationships will enable us to care for others in a more honest fashion.”
VIRGO SUN = SERVICE (TO SELF FIRST!)
As this Pisces Full Moon highlights for us the dichotomy between playing the victim OR the martyr, and the call to be of service, think about this:
- How and where in your life do you play the victim (& why?)
- What are the REAL reasons to willingly take on the role of martyr? (Think long suffering wife, husband, lover, parent, sibling, employee, friend, etc., etc.
- How can you fill your own well of self-love from within so that you actually have enough to replenish this well if you give some away to another–and thus avoid a victim or martyr’s stance?
The seemingly fleeting light shed on this issue by the current Pisces Full Moon may be more important than we realize.
It’s my strong belief as an astrologer that the universe constantly and consistently provides us with opportunities to grow in consciousness. However, it’s up to us to recognize these opportunities when we see/feel/hear/sense them.
Each and every Full Moon gives us the chance to jettison that which no longer serves our higher consciousness. And growth in consciousness collectively helps make this planet a better, more loving, and more real place to both visit AND in which to live…