The Fault In Our Stars?
If you’ve been feeling like you’re drowning lately, take heart! With all the Piscean energy in the sky recently, it’s no wonder that any of us feel we simply can’t muster up either the energy or the consciousness to move ahead with purpose…
However, this Virgo Full Moon comes along to remind us that we can CHOOSE to believe several things:
- From chaos comes clarity
- Surrender doesn’t mean giving up
- The role we play doesn’t have to be forever
This Virgo Full Moon opposes not only the Sun, but also Neptune, & by polarity Mercury, Venus, and wounded healer Chiron in Pisces, the sign of the fishes.
Neptune-ruled Pisces is represented by two fish yoked together and attempting to swim in different directions: one back toward source energy; the other out in the world into this thing we call life…
An inherent dichotomy arises when we’re unsure of in which direction to place our energy. Do we heed the siren’s call to swim back into the protective womb, where life is easy and all our needs are miraculously automatically met? Or do we venture bravely out into the scary unknown that we call life?
The potential for confusion is easily understandable, no? Regardless, the answer, as always, lies with the integration of these two archetypal energies.
This Virgo Full Moon reminds us that swimming “home,” back to whence from which we came, has its dangers. It keeps us dependent, infantile, and addicted to the blissful not-knowing-ness of the womb where when hungry we were fed, when tired we slept, and we didn’t have to be responsible for any damn thing!
It’s for this reason Pisces archetypal energy can manifest in intangible or the blurriest of ways. Often, it’s behind any confusion, illusion, or delusion we may experience that drives us to drink, drug, sleep, eat, or in any other way “check out” of our painful mundane reality via such self-soothing “remedies.”
However, this Virgo Full Moon tells us there’s another way! It infuses a dose of reality into our world.
How?
The Virgo archetype is about discernment—the kind that reminds us the devilis in the details, and that the overall forest is comprised of individual trees.
Recently, we may have felt like we’re looking at an impressionist painting up
But, wait! Take a step back, and another, and another, and if you do, slowly it can all come into focus at this Virgo Full Moon—and you’ll be able to see t hemarvelous Renoir water scene, beautiful Cezanne landscape, or colorfully busy Seurat picnic in the park!
What’s required here is FOCUS in order to become cognizant of both sides of these polar opposite archetypal energies. And where we choose to put our focus is up to us. In other words, it’s always a matter of choice…
For example, we can choose to remain stuck in the Piscean realm where we feel like we’re drowning & helpless, find fault in our stars–or we can focus our energy on the knowledge that this is simply one energetic end of a wide-ranging spectrum.
Give It Up…
All of this Piscean energy opposite the Virgo Full Moon asks us to lift our heads up and look around. It signals that, while we may experience confusion, despair, fatigue, and/or depression, that maybe, just maybe, we can have our cake and eat it too…
…but there’s a price, and that comes in the form of deciding what we must give up…since deciding what needs to go can be a difficult question to answer, let me break it down at bit:
First and foremost, this Virgo Full Moon reminds us that playing either the victim or the martyr won’t work. And that’s mostly because both of these roles involve too much, er, EGO…
When Pisces energy is involved, a victim’s ego can be wrapped up with her myopia; her inability to see the forest from the trees, to not be able to make out the impressionist painting’s overall scene. Thus, her pain becomes most important–her feelings of abandonment, righteous indignation or rage, grief, depression, etc.–take precedence over everything else.
Am I victim-bashing here? No, I’m merely pointing out that one can don the clothing of “victim” and mire oneself in despair to the point where one feels hopeless. It’s then we may cease to take matters into our own hands, and instead choose to blame another or others for injustices done to us.
“Take your life in your own hands, and what happens?
A terrible thing: no one to blame.” ~ Erica Jong
So, what do we do when we feel everything slipping away? Maybe it’s our significant other, family, job, children, finances…or maybe it’s bigger even than that, like someone’s death. Maybe it feels like loss, grief, anger, or confusion around our goals, plans, hopes, wishes, & dreams…
The Virgo Full Moon reminds us that its energy can add earthy stability through healthy daily—or regular–rituals that fit into your regular routine, such as focusing on adding into our busy schedules:
- A Gratitude list
- Meditation
- Healthy diet
- Regular exercise
- Spiritual/psychic protection
- Creative outlet, no matter what that might be
Concentrating on adding even one of these things to your daily “to do” list will go a long way toward reducing the escapist tendencies often felt by those who carry a heavy dose of the Neptunian/Pisces archetype.
This goes for everyone, however, as the tendency for any one of us to feel surrounded by chaotic river, lakes, or oceans to which we must surrender ourselves and simply go with the flow is strong…
When we feel this way, we must indeed go with the flow, but not surrender to feelings of helplessness. Rather, we can harness the ongoing chaotic swirl of life not by making logical sense of it, but rather by honoring it.
The ancients believed that gods demand sacrifices. Perhaps that’s a strong word, one that makes us think we have to give something up in order to survive.
The truth is that what we’re asked to “sacrifice” at this Virgo Full Moon—remember, full Moons are always times of release!—is any victim or martyr tendencies.
Take Heart!
Venus’ trine to Jupiter at this Virgo Full Moon signifies we can expand our consciousness around what it is we truly value now.
Jupiter always asks us to be conscious, while Venus seeks to find out what it is our soul truly values. So, we can interpret this aspect falling at the Virgo Full Moon as on that can help us decide on what we place more value: staying helplessly stuck in the kind of hopeless ennui we may feel now—or moving forward through Virgo energy to take some sort of action, even if it’s simply mental.
Even letting go, or surrendering a thought–giving it up go God, as they say in
Mars’ square to Mercury, Venus, & Chiron now also tells us that it’s less beneficial for us to beat up ourselves (or others), especially through the way we think or communicate, and to stop and figure out what we’re really annoyed with, or what’s really hurt us.
Chances are if we go deep and heed Erica Jong’s advice, we’ll figure out it’s actually not someone else, but rather ourselves with whom we’re annoyed.
So use that Venus/Jupiter trine to expand your consciousness and the Virgo Full Moon to release all that does not serve as you move forward more consciously in this lifetime…
And honor spiritual self when the Sun conjoins with Neptune on March 4…your dreams can come true, but you’ve got to put your will behind them in order to make them happen…
The Virgo Full Moon says release confusion, doubt, insecurity, and reliance upon any inner voices that tell you you’re no good, not worth it, untalented, lack imagination, or are simply unworthy.
This Virgo Full Moon is perfect for Kesha’s song/video “Praying,” which depicts her at the beginning lying on a cross-like structure giving voice to the stereotypical Piscean dilemma: what IS the purpose & reason of life if living includes suffering? It follows to a Piscean conclusion that “being alive hurts too much.” But, as Kesha sings, there’s another way that involves CHOICE:
“Am I dead? Or is this one of those dreams?Those horrible dreams that seem like they last forever?
If I am alive, why? Why? If there is a God or whatever, something, somewhere, why have I been abandoned by everyone and everything I’ve ever known? I’ve ever loved? Stranded. What is the lesson? What is the point? God, give me a sign, or I have to give up. I can’t do this anymore.
Please just let me die. Being alive hurts too much.”
Praying
Kesha
“Well, you almost had me fooled
Told me that I was nothing without you
Oh, but after everything you’ve done
I can thank you for how strong I have become
‘Cause you brought the flames and you put me through hell
I had to learn how to fight for myself
And we both know all the truth I could tell
I’ll just say this is I wish you farewell
I hope you’re somewhere praying, praying
I hope your soul is changing, changing
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, praying
I’m proud of who I am
No more monsters, I can breathe again
And you said that I was done
Well, you were wrong and now the best is yet to come
‘Cause I can make it on my own
And I don’t need you, I found a strength I’ve never known
I’ve been thrown out, I’ve been burned
When I’m finished, they won’t even know your name
You brought the flames and you put me through hell
I had to learn how to fight for myself
And we both know all the truth I could tell
I’ll just say this is I wish you farewell
I hope you’re somewhere praying, praying
I hope your soul is changing, changing
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, praying
Oh, sometimes, I pray for you at night
Someday, maybe you’ll see the light
Oh, some say, in life, you’re gonna get what you give
But some things, only God can forgive
I hope you’re somewhere praying, praying
I hope your soul is changing, changing
I hope you find your peace
Falling on your knees, praying...”
~ Kesha
